I think that I am just beginning to crack the smallest bit of shell when it comes to forgiveness. I was recently reading in ephesians about this very subject. It says to forgive just as Christ forgives. Well.... what in the heck does that mean? I am nowhere near Christ's ability to forgive!!!!! But, Christ living in me does, thank goodness. When you think about how He forgives, how exactly does that work? Well, He forgives quickly and completely. what's quickly? a day? a week? a year? is it a process? I think it can be all the above! AT least, I hope so. Completely... what does that mean? It means all of it. ALL of the hurt. All of the pain caused. Forgiven.
I have been struggling with forgiving the ones who have hurt me so deeply. IT IS SOOOO HARD. I beg God to help me forgive. Most days I just have to say it in Jesus' name. I cannot do it through mine. But, in order for me to move on with my life in a 'whole' way, I must strive for this. I feel as though I need to write a letter, but as of now, Thursday night, Nov 19th, I'm not ready. Please forgive me Lord ad give me the strength to do what needs to be done. Love you all!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
people pleasing
Why is it that we sometimes say, "Well, I'm just a people pleaser."???? I guess I/we don't realize that we are completely speaking that over ourselves. I mean, we say it as if it's the absolute truth. Why can't we just stop and say, "I am no longer a people pleaser?" Just stop! Quit saying you want to stop and you ought to stop... Just STOP. It will bring an unbelievable amount of peace to your life. Ultimately we are to please God. If we are concerned with pleasing God first, just as Jesus was while on this earth, then everything/everyone else takes the back seat. And besides, it's an impossible task to please all men! It's quite exhausting. Think about this, when we occasionally DO please man, we are not servants of God. (Galatians 1:10) We can't please both. If we are in tune and in step with the Holy Spirit at all times, trying to please Him and only Him, we will have so much peace, we won't know what to do with it.
WEll, I am done with training. It's kind of sad, really. It's kind of like your wedding day. You prepare for soooo long and it's all you talk about for quite some time, then, BOOM it's done! This happens to me every time. So, I am ready to take on the next assignment God has for me. He's so good at that. He equips you for the unknown and then makes known what it is that you are to do. It's so much fun isn't it? It's like an adventure everyday!!! And people say living the life of a Christian is boring! WHAT??? please... It's like constantly watching a broadway show, but BETTER. Or a really amazing movie, but BETTER! I would never trade this in! well, love you all. have a great week! T
WEll, I am done with training. It's kind of sad, really. It's kind of like your wedding day. You prepare for soooo long and it's all you talk about for quite some time, then, BOOM it's done! This happens to me every time. So, I am ready to take on the next assignment God has for me. He's so good at that. He equips you for the unknown and then makes known what it is that you are to do. It's so much fun isn't it? It's like an adventure everyday!!! And people say living the life of a Christian is boring! WHAT??? please... It's like constantly watching a broadway show, but BETTER. Or a really amazing movie, but BETTER! I would never trade this in! well, love you all. have a great week! T
Sunday, November 1, 2009
reflection
Well.... I was thinking this morning during the 11:30 service, that one week ago I was on mile 21, almost done. I cannot believe that it has come and gone. What an amazing journey! I will tell ya what, though, it did not come without sacrifice! All that training and time. The days that I absolutely did not want to train... wow. I look back on all the supernatural strength that God imparted on me to help me complete the task. all glory and honor go to Him for this victory in my life. I am telling you what, a marathon is like life in 4 hours! there's pacing, plateuos, excitement, pain, tears, sweat, exhaustion, joy, and on and on.
the interesting part of the weekend was how my support kept getting taken away from me. First, my sister and her husband couldn't come due to a death in their family, then, my best friend from high school couldn't come due to illness, and another friend had surgery and couldn't make it! It was as if God was saying to me..."I'm your portion, I'm all you need." (A lesson that He's been teaching me lately.) I'm telling you what, there are so many things to learn in singleness! He is jealous for me... He really is. He wants all of my time. And, you know what? He's enough for me. He's more than enough. But, He also knows what we need. He provided Ked and Michelle and Teresa to be there and cheer me on throughout the race and most importantly after the race as I needed some TLC. Just exactly what i needed.
So, as of last week, we have raised over $5,000 for the Refuge! YYYEEEAAAHHHH! thank you all so much for your donations and prayers. Our banquet on tuesday of last week brought in over $70,000! God is just moving and shaking. I love you all so much and can't wait to see what's to come. I am taking a break from running for a while, but watch out, God might be calling you to train for a 'running for the refuge event'! God bless. Taryn
the interesting part of the weekend was how my support kept getting taken away from me. First, my sister and her husband couldn't come due to a death in their family, then, my best friend from high school couldn't come due to illness, and another friend had surgery and couldn't make it! It was as if God was saying to me..."I'm your portion, I'm all you need." (A lesson that He's been teaching me lately.) I'm telling you what, there are so many things to learn in singleness! He is jealous for me... He really is. He wants all of my time. And, you know what? He's enough for me. He's more than enough. But, He also knows what we need. He provided Ked and Michelle and Teresa to be there and cheer me on throughout the race and most importantly after the race as I needed some TLC. Just exactly what i needed.
So, as of last week, we have raised over $5,000 for the Refuge! YYYEEEAAAHHHH! thank you all so much for your donations and prayers. Our banquet on tuesday of last week brought in over $70,000! God is just moving and shaking. I love you all so much and can't wait to see what's to come. I am taking a break from running for a while, but watch out, God might be calling you to train for a 'running for the refuge event'! God bless. Taryn
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Justice
Why is it that we always have the need to be justified? To be right? To be heard? I mean, I know why... it's our selfish flesh crying out, wanting to be noticed.
What about when we've been wronged. Why is it that we feel the need to make it right? What about when someone has told a lie about us. Why are we always so quickly on a mission to call them out? I think deep down, that part of the reason is that we don't trust our Father to do the justifying! I can only speak for myself, but, I would dare say we all have struggled with this at some point or another.
Y0u have heard that is was said, "Eye for an eye, and tooth for a tooth. But, Jesus said, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other. And if someone wants to sue you and take the shirt off your back, let him have your best coat and make a present of it. and if someone takes an unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life. Not more tit-for-tat stuff. Love generously."
Just remember that we have been justified through faith! We have peace because of the cross, therefore live at peace with one another, even if they don't deserve it! ( because we don't either...) Jesus is our justifier! He makes things right! He will stand up for us on our behalf!
Rest in the fact that Jesus was also wronged, falsely accused, and lied about! And He took it to the cross! AMEN! THANK GOODNESS. HALLELUJAH! Love you all. Thanks for reading what God is teaching me.
12 more days till the big race! There is still time to donate! thanks in advance for your prayers!
What about when we've been wronged. Why is it that we feel the need to make it right? What about when someone has told a lie about us. Why are we always so quickly on a mission to call them out? I think deep down, that part of the reason is that we don't trust our Father to do the justifying! I can only speak for myself, but, I would dare say we all have struggled with this at some point or another.
Y0u have heard that is was said, "Eye for an eye, and tooth for a tooth. But, Jesus said, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other. And if someone wants to sue you and take the shirt off your back, let him have your best coat and make a present of it. and if someone takes an unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life. Not more tit-for-tat stuff. Love generously."
Just remember that we have been justified through faith! We have peace because of the cross, therefore live at peace with one another, even if they don't deserve it! ( because we don't either...) Jesus is our justifier! He makes things right! He will stand up for us on our behalf!
Rest in the fact that Jesus was also wronged, falsely accused, and lied about! And He took it to the cross! AMEN! THANK GOODNESS. HALLELUJAH! Love you all. Thanks for reading what God is teaching me.
12 more days till the big race! There is still time to donate! thanks in advance for your prayers!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Approaching...
Because I have stuck close with my 'plan', I can approach my race with confidence. Because I have tried my hardest to show discipline, I can run this race that has been marked out for me. Because I have sacrificed my time, I will be able to reap the rewards of the satisfaction that will come from crossing that finish line. Yes, it's approaching very rapidly... I am so excited! I can't believe it is only 3 weeks away.
So, I was thinking about a scripture in Hebrews..."Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. " How do we do that? Is it a list of things that I mentioned above? sticking to a rigid plan? Having a disciplined quiet time everyday at the same time? Sacrificing your time at let's say, a homeless shelter? NO! We can't do anything with confidence without CHRIST!!! Grace isn't given to us because we've completed all these tasks. It's a gift that's undeserving. That's why it says in Matthew, " Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." Poor in spirit means that they have done absolutely NOTHING to deserve heaven! It's just what God does! He gives out grace to the undeserving. We can try to be as good as possible. We can try to be perfect in the spiritual sense. We can try, try, try. POINTLESS. We approach the throne of grace because Jesus allows us to. He is the source of our confidence. Praise the Lord!
I WILL run this race marked out before me... In the physical sense and spiritual sense. Would you join me? Let's APPROACH the throne of grace together with confidence, not because we have put in the time of training but because of CHRIST alone. Love you all!
So, I was thinking about a scripture in Hebrews..."Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. " How do we do that? Is it a list of things that I mentioned above? sticking to a rigid plan? Having a disciplined quiet time everyday at the same time? Sacrificing your time at let's say, a homeless shelter? NO! We can't do anything with confidence without CHRIST!!! Grace isn't given to us because we've completed all these tasks. It's a gift that's undeserving. That's why it says in Matthew, " Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." Poor in spirit means that they have done absolutely NOTHING to deserve heaven! It's just what God does! He gives out grace to the undeserving. We can try to be as good as possible. We can try to be perfect in the spiritual sense. We can try, try, try. POINTLESS. We approach the throne of grace because Jesus allows us to. He is the source of our confidence. Praise the Lord!
I WILL run this race marked out before me... In the physical sense and spiritual sense. Would you join me? Let's APPROACH the throne of grace together with confidence, not because we have put in the time of training but because of CHRIST alone. Love you all!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I see the light
well, hello! what a busy last few weeks I have had. My daughter turned 3 today! I just can't believe it. She brings me so much joy. I think I recently realized why God gave me a girl. I had a vision the other day of her and I, hand in hand, being a team for the Lord. I can see her and I bringing wholeness to little girls and their mommies. I can see her witnessing to her little friends at sleepovers and the moms and I hanging out learning more and more about Jesus! It starts when they are young. Learning their worth, that is... I pray that Taytum and I can leave a legacy together of freedom and wholeness in Christ! I know I'm getting a little deep and sentimental, but it really was a vision that came straight from the Lord. I pray that she will be as bold as a lion and gentle as a dove.
In case you were wondering, we are rapidly approaching $3000 with the fund raising!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!! I am just amazed at what He is doing. I have 4 1/2 weeks left! Oh my word. As of now, my sister and her husband are coming, Ked and Michelle Frank, a woman that will be staying at the refuge when it opens, and possible a few other friends that live in DC. It will be neat to have a cheering squad there. I am getting really excited! My runs are going well and I am feeling really well! I love you all and thank you for your ongoing prayers for the refuge and for my training! Taryn
In case you were wondering, we are rapidly approaching $3000 with the fund raising!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!! I am just amazed at what He is doing. I have 4 1/2 weeks left! Oh my word. As of now, my sister and her husband are coming, Ked and Michelle Frank, a woman that will be staying at the refuge when it opens, and possible a few other friends that live in DC. It will be neat to have a cheering squad there. I am getting really excited! My runs are going well and I am feeling really well! I love you all and thank you for your ongoing prayers for the refuge and for my training! Taryn
Thursday, September 10, 2009
No sweeter name
Hey everyone! well, I have about 6 weeks left. I CANNOT believe it. the training is going very fast. Although, the next month and a half will be tough. I could definitely use your prayers for supernatural strength.
I was thinking about the meaning of names this week (thanks to one of my friends...) and it's kind of neat to look up what people's names mean along with your own. My name means strong tower! ha ha. too cool. Anyway, I was reflecting on the sermon from a few weeks ago and Jon was describing the fatti tattoo that will be across Jesus' thigh... KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS. That's my kind of a name. Would I be so bold to tattoo Jesus' name on me? I guess it's kind of the same thing if I profess with my mouth that I am a Christ follower. I might just as well have Jesus tattooed across my forehead. It got me to thinking about what names I have made famous... Let's start with my own... I mean, how many of us try to promote ourselves into certain postions? Or try to make ourselves seem better that we really are? Or how about how much we talk about a sports figure or a movie star or Oprah, for goodness sakes!!!
In reality, we should really only be spending our time making Jesus famous. Don't we find ourselves talking about the things we love? Well, I'm madly in love with Him, so I'm just going to talk about Him as much as I possibly can. I mean, if you talk about Him and I talk about Him, sooner or later people are gonna wanna know who HE IS! Couple that with some intense, authentic love and BOOM... He's been made famous! So, when you are sad... talk about Him. When you are happy... talk about Him. When you are angry... talk about Him. Excited, Him. frustrated, Him. He makes all things better.
There is no sweeter name than the name of Jesus. He is the light to our hearts and our souls, He is the light to the darkness that surrounds us, He is the hope to the hopeless and broken, He is the only truth and only way. Have a great night! love you all
I was thinking about the meaning of names this week (thanks to one of my friends...) and it's kind of neat to look up what people's names mean along with your own. My name means strong tower! ha ha. too cool. Anyway, I was reflecting on the sermon from a few weeks ago and Jon was describing the fatti tattoo that will be across Jesus' thigh... KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS. That's my kind of a name. Would I be so bold to tattoo Jesus' name on me? I guess it's kind of the same thing if I profess with my mouth that I am a Christ follower. I might just as well have Jesus tattooed across my forehead. It got me to thinking about what names I have made famous... Let's start with my own... I mean, how many of us try to promote ourselves into certain postions? Or try to make ourselves seem better that we really are? Or how about how much we talk about a sports figure or a movie star or Oprah, for goodness sakes!!!
In reality, we should really only be spending our time making Jesus famous. Don't we find ourselves talking about the things we love? Well, I'm madly in love with Him, so I'm just going to talk about Him as much as I possibly can. I mean, if you talk about Him and I talk about Him, sooner or later people are gonna wanna know who HE IS! Couple that with some intense, authentic love and BOOM... He's been made famous! So, when you are sad... talk about Him. When you are happy... talk about Him. When you are angry... talk about Him. Excited, Him. frustrated, Him. He makes all things better.
There is no sweeter name than the name of Jesus. He is the light to our hearts and our souls, He is the light to the darkness that surrounds us, He is the hope to the hopeless and broken, He is the only truth and only way. Have a great night! love you all
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